I’m on my second month of stay here in Singapore and my second week of stay here in Pasir Ris.
I still get depress every once in a while, but that feeling of being needed and “usefulness” made everything bearable. hahaha. I get to help SVC with her online shop, I go to SingPost to send out the orders (and use her laptop for my job hunting) while she’s in school during mornings.
No unnecessary dramas too. I am more comfortable here and one of the reasons is because I get to play with big little Geof. AC and SVC made one of the corners here in the flat as my “room”. It’s soooo cute, it just feels like my room at home.
And as usual during weekends, I get to spend it out and often times with ES. hahaha. He usually takes care of all our expenses then he would give me the receipt so I’d know how much I’ll reimburse him when I finally have work. hahaha.
so far I am generally ok, I am just hoping that I’d find work soonest possible time.
This is the longest time that I have been away from home.
Thank You God, for the gift of technology that we can connect to people we love easily these days, but nonetheless.
Today, I am supposed to be going back home. But last Monday, my request for a social visit pass extension was granted so, now, I am allowed to stay for another month.
I have realized a couple of things today:
a. I think if I had push through with that teaching stint in an English Camp for Korean, I could have bigger chance of getting a work.
b. I feel like I am on a working Holy Week.
c. I am four years too late for this adventure. haha. Or I should just have stayed longer last June.
d. That after thinking about items a-c I didn’t find myself dwelling with it. hmmm, nagmamature na? hahaha.
e. I hate people who are inconsistent, and lately, I am becoming one of the most inconsistent AND unstable person that I know. I therefore conclude, I am beginning to hate myself?!?!
f. I am tired of “drama”. really. I have too much of my own worries and problems to put up with other people’s drama. Hence, I am becoming anti-social hahaha.
g. I miss my mommy and sisters and niece. I really do. But I know that I want them coming here and us making pasyal than me going back home.
h. Haven’t had a single stick since last Sunday night.
i. One of my favorite time of the day is whenever I hear Lia’s Aunt sing to her to sleep.
this post is slightly “sabog”. hahahaha.