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Archive for January, 2011


I have already accepted that I am doomed to walk the Earth alone, not easy, but I made peace with this bit of information for quite a while now.

I remember that whenever someone will ask me questions like “Kumusta na?” (How are you), I would often retort back “Eto pinupunan ng mga gala ang mga kakulangan sa buhay ko.” (I’m trying to busy myself with travels and adventures to cover up that emptiness in my life), yun nga ba ang English translation non? haha!

Anyway, lately, I feel so empty, not alone, but empty. And I think that’s bad. Don’t get me wrong here, it’s just that I’ve always been single (and so used to it), and (most of the times) I am not complaining, basically because emptiness can’t find me. Emptiness can’t find me because I am always nowhere but everywhere.

I love to Travel. I really do. I am always at my happiest whenever I am out in the world exploring, experiencing things, taking pictures and other activities that one do when travelling (the good and the bad). But, with the way things are going for me, I can no longer do it as frequently and as hassle-free as I used to.

Right now, I feel so lost staying put. And emptiness, finally succeeded in trapping me.


Chicken Ala Carbonara

Actually, I really don’t know what to call this experiment I did, or if there’s an existing dish like this.

I think it was yesterday (or was it the other day) that I cooked Carbonara. I was craving for it and luckily we have the ingredients. But, I didn’t know that we have only little pasta left so, I ended up with a lot of excess sauce.

Last night, I was thinking of what I can cook that I can use the leftover Carbonara sauce. I checked our refrigerator and we have chicken. So, there, I just did some experimenting.

In fairness it tasted good. I might cook it again hehehe.

Just want to share the recipe, in case you want to try it too.

Carbonara Sauce:

1. Saute onion, mushroom and ham (you can use bacon).
2. Pour in the Cream of Mushroom soup (make sure that you have diluted a pack in at least 3 cups of water).
3. Stir until mixture thickens.
4. Add grated cheese.
5. Add the All Purpose Cream.
6. Stir until you’re satisfied.

Chicken Ala Carbonara:

1. Saute crushed garlic.
2. Stir fry Chicken until golden brown.
3. Add a cup of water.
4. Let it boil until the Chicken is cooked.
5. Pour in the Carbonara sauce you prepared.
6. Stir and cook until you’re satisfied.

I haven’t been eating rice for two weeks now but, because of this, I ate a cup. 😉 if you are like me who loves it creamy and cheesy, you’d love this too. 🙂


Lately, I have been obsessing with twins. I want to have my own twins!

Actually, taking care of twins is not really easy. Imagine having to care for a kid times two?!? But I can’t also deny that it is also double the fun.

I have twin nephews. When they were younger I used to baby sit them specially during my summer breaks. They can be handful but they are so sweet most of the times. And lately, my twins are both in college and I miss them so much. I just love them both to bits.

And the major reason why I am missing both of them is because of them:

Stars of the Suite Life of Zack and Cody

the stars of The Suite Life of Zack & Cody. Cole and Dylan Sprouse when they were younger.

They remind me so much of JJ and ER (my nephews). Specially when I watch The Suite Life of Zack & Cody. They are sooooooooo adorable!

Now, both these twins are teenagers, I think the Sprouse twins is just a year older than my nephews.

hayyyy, I want to have my own twins. yeah, I prefer both boys and identical… and sweet and adorable and on the gwapo side. I’ll be needing a gwapo and can produce twins to be their dad. (haha! yes, you read it right, he doesn’t have to become my “husband”, that would be just asking for too much haha!).

Of Heavy Rains and Ice Cream

This is my 1st Something New for this year.

I spent the past 4 days with KZBT, her family and CGT at Bicol. And as usual, I brought home with me a copy of Cebu Pacific’s Inflight Magazine SMILE. I was looking through its pages, when one of the pages about Bicol caught my attention. And one of the things that really tickled my fancy was the picture of SILI ICE CREAM.

Bicol is known for their love for SILI (chili) and a sili as a flavor of ice cream, is really quite interesting. We searched online as to where in Albay, can we taste this ice cream.

The place is called 1ST COLONIAL GRILL, a grill situated in Metro Gaisano Mall in Albay. Aside from Sili Icecream, they also have other crazy ice cream flavors like calamansi, pili nut, tinutong (toasted rice), Baileys and malunggay (a leafy vegetable). We tried all these crazy flavors.

Not Your Usual Ice Cream Flavors

Sili Ice Cream – is your usual sweet and creamy but have an after melt effect and burning sensation that you get when eating spicy food.

Malunggay Ice Cream – is your typical malunggay taste. Bitter but creamy form. This was our least favorite because of it’s strong taste. Ugh!

Tinutong na Ice Cream – is a surprise waiting to be tasted. It is almost as what dark chocolate taste.

Kalamansi Ice Cream – is a combination of sour and creamy. Hmmm it’s like having a kalamansi juice in cream form. hahaha.

Baileys – is almost like Baileys shake.

Pili – is just like your vanilla ice cream with Pili nuts.

Their ice cream dish consists of 3 scoops, which you can request to have the flavors combined in a serving. Each serving costs only 79 pesos.

Reading Plan

I started a Reading plan which I got from the tweet of Ms. Miriam Quiambao. http://www.youversion.com/reading-plans/

I choose the Life Application Study Bible ® Devotion which is about learning how to apply God’s word into my life. (That, and another one which I subscribed in my cellphone, which is about First Steps Reading Plan)

This Reading plan’s length is one year. So, I really hope that I’d finished the whole plan until January 1, 2012. Help me pray for this. 🙂


Day 1: Psalm 6:6

I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears.


I continued to read the verse (using my new Bible!!! weee!) and this is what says:

My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fall because of all my foes. Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping. The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.
(Psalm 6:7-9)

I know and I have experienced this, prayer (a.k.a. talking to God) really helps. We can pour our hearts out to Him and we should trust Him for He knows what’s very best for us.